Ep. 133. (Cin's diary) | November 18, 2008 at 2:23 a.m.

 

Nov 18, 2008 - 2:23 AM

 

CIN

Ooh I love the way you, love the way you love me...

Got that song stuck in my head by randomly singing it in the shower. Anyhoo.

I keep having these weird dreams, and it doesn't just happen during the night. Sometimes, during the day when I'm doing nothing related to it-- him? it? him? oh gosh-- I'll feel this sort of... fog come over me, and then his face will materialise within the fog. This is disturbing as

1) I'm engaged,

2) the person in the fog is not the person to whom I'm engaged,

3) I thought I'd stopped thinking about him,

4) I used to have a rather.... potent crush on him, and

5) with our world crashing down around us and me already mostly powerless to help, a Bliu-shaped distraction is exactly what I DON'T need. Oh, and

6) UM, LET'S NOT FORGET HE ALREADY THINKS I'M, YOU KNOW, CREEPY. What I do in my interactions with, with anybody, is CRUCIAL to me Becoming.

Oh yes, and Lee, I KNOW we listen to CMT. However-- that song has not been on it. So why the random country/pop song when I could have gotten somethin by Brad Paisley stuck in there instead?

AAAARRRRGH! I'M ENGAGED! I SHOULDN'T BE FEELING THIS WAY ABOUT SOMEONE WHO IS NOT MY BETROTHED!

*bonk* No more dream

*bonk* No more dream

*bonk* No more dream.